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Saturday, 4 October 2008 - 20:21
0 opinions:I feel so fustrated. People say, if you have dreams, follow it. I want to follow my dreams, I want to be successful so for once people won't look down on me. I can't stand people looking down on me anymore, always thinking I can't do this, I can't do that. Please stop thinking I'm a fucking loser, let me have a chance to change. I don't want to be a loser forever. I'm sure no one wants to, ever. I've been a loser pretty much ever since I was born. No one trusts me, no one believes I can actually do something without creating trouble. I admit I'm clumsy and I'm big so I tend to knock over stuff. I'm a big kuku head, I don't think before I speak. I can't cook, I can't draw, I have no brains. I'm an idiot, I'm dumb, I"m ugly and I suck. I can't do anything well, because that's the way I am. I wish to change, but I'm not supposed to because I am who I am, the way I was borned to me. I tried but I failed. Looks like I'm going to be a failure in everything forever. I want to be a good photographer. But my photographs are really going down, down and down. I tried really really hard, but in the end, I got even more scoldings. I don't like to be discouraged, and I'm someone who does something this minute and another in the other minute. But this time... I sticked to photography and really really tried and want to pursue it. But everytime, there's always something stopping me. Luck isn't just with me. I can never compete with the people out there. People like me (but there isn't any other person like me) can never do anything correctly. I give up. Read more! |